Tuesday, July 22, 2008


I've been a client for such a long time with enough different dommes that I would be well and truly fulla shit if I said I've been perfect. I've become friends with a few prodommes in the past couple of years and more than ever I've realized that I've often been a pretty jerky client. The Maxville board, with all its crazy problems, has been great for me to see how poor behavior on the part of sub-guys affects dommes in such an unwarranted, negative way.

I was never much for the protocol thing in my AA 12 Step program when I went, but I carry the Steps with me in my wallet. I remain sober and have been for over twenty-five years, but haven't been to a meeting in a long, long time. Just haven't wanted or needed it. But remembering all the times I was a jerk to a prodomme made me think of the "amends" steps - mostly Step 8.

Step 8 reads, "Made a list of all persons we harmed and became willing to make amends to them all."

Now, I'm not namin' names. Just a list of the crap I pulled which I'm sorry about. This is pretty lame but it'll have to do.
  • I called and wasted your time.
  • I called repeatedly and certainly qualified as a "wanker".
  • I made appointments that I didn't keep.
  • I wrote waaaay too many emails.
  • I was overly dramatic. (Still am ...)
  • My lists were way too long and controlling.
  • I begged and whined and pleaded and when you finally gave me exactly what I'd been simpering for I didn't have the balls to go through with it.
  • I broke my chastity vow without permission.
  • I asked to be your friend before I ever even met you.

There ... told ya! I'm a jerk!! ... But I was never boring.


Ms. Tara Sterling said...

Wow. It is wonderful, as a Domme to see that someone who would certainly be considered annoying by me has actually seen the error of his ways! It is good to know that it is possible for you boys to figure it out.

advochasty said...

You are so right! I was really an annoying client at times. In my defense, it has been years since I was consistently annoying. I think I've probably developed other annoying traits. I should definitely be punished! :P

Thanks for dropping by!! I love your blog...and your whole thing!