What Is It They Say About Early Birds?

This year I've started early. I promised She last year that I would. Well, what I said when she was so disappointed in me for not properly observing Valentine's Day was, "Just wait until next year." So I've started early.

Papyrus in Soho has a sale on V-Day cards. Buy three get one free. I got six free cards. Plus a bunch of ninety-eight cent stamps, song lyrics to paste into the aforementioned cards and a perverted editor's eye to making the Hallmark holiday hum with the vibrancy of the depraved and deviant. Oh okay, I'll let a couple of vanilla "I love you" cards slip through my debauched revisions, but I think it fitting to mark this made up holiday in this fashion. Plus, so far She loves her cards.

This time last year she started her new job and kind of stopped focusing on me. It hurt and I whined and pined. This year she's moving to a new place and very busy at work. To say the least, I'm busy too. But last year we came through a time when we veered apart only to come together and become closer and stronger. So this year I have lots of quiet trust that our bond is strong and true.

As well, a good chunk of my motivation to study and pass my second bar exam is to be in a position to see She more often. It's not the only reason mind you. We could incinerate and I'd still want my condo with the waterview and parking spot for the convertible. But the thought of her in the picture makes the pain of bar study that much more righteous.

A kinky woman friend said my study was a true act of devotion to my domme, and said that she hoped that She appreciated it. I hope She appreciates it too. But the most important thing is that I know it is, at least in part, a deep act of fidelity and love for a woman who changed my life. Then again, there's also breakfast on the terrace in February in a t-shirt and shorts ... She or no she.

Oh who am I kidding? She has me wrapped around her little finger!